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Here, in the shadow…

“Exodus”

My black backpack’s stuffed with broken dreams
20 bucks should get me through the week
Never said a word of discontentment
Fought it a thousand times but now
I’m leaving home

[CHORUS:]
Here in the shadows
I’m safe
I’m free
I’ve nowhere else to go but
I cannot stay where I don’t belong

Two months pass by and it’s getting cold
I know I’m not lost
I am just alone
But I won’t cry
I won’t give up
I can’t go back now
Waking up is knowing who you really are

[Chorus]

[Chorus]

Show me the shadow where true meaning lies
So much more dismay in empty eyes

… This song is really so close to what happened to me. Or at least to what I am feeling sometimes. It’s like I’m forced into it…I really felt leaving with my backpack full of broken dreams…I still have them no, there, and in my room, and in my mind and soul. But as the song already says it…I can’t go back now…where I don’t belong..

Still, this weekend I reminded myself what all those years ment…why I was such foolish in love..why I did all those things…and why I still don’t regret them, and think about it like my “golden days”…

 

I hope

Saying farewell is also a bold and powerful begining…

1 month

I don’t even know what I want to say now…I really drank too much beer tonight. And somebody called me a coward, and he’s right. So, next sunday….whatever will be, will be…

In UK…

Se pare ca am ajuns pana la urma si aici. Se numeste ca acum locuiesc in Anglia. Eu aia care pana la 23 de ani n-a lipsit de acasa mai mult de 2 saptamni. E si asta o chestie..
Ce pot sa spun? E bine. Mai bine decat puteam spera. Acum tot ce trebuie sa fac e sa-mi vad de treaba, sa muncesc cat mai mult(sper ca in cateva luni sa mai gasesc si ceva part-time), si sa cheltuiesc cat mai putin:D…ca deja imi sclipesc ochii la laptopuri, cizme sau mai stiu eu ce balarii )
In rest…Imi e al dracu de dor. Dar trebuie sa invat sa traiesc cu dorul asta…cum bine zicea cineva…cand iti e dor, gandeste-te cu iubire, cu ‘lumina’, trimite toate gandurile bune, and then drop it. So it seems that’s what I have to do too.